Written by Josh on October 17th, 2010
I think I’m being honest here when I say I would probably have the same feelings right now that I would if I would’ve received 1st place. The thing is – you do this sport for you and yourself and that’s it. So by the time I had arrived at the contest, I’d already judged myself.
I know I’m not at my full potential – I have a lot to work on, and a lot to improve on. If you ask me, that’s a good thing. If I had come in thinking I was at the best I could be and then received last place – I might have different feelings.
So the feelings I have right now are relieved and hungry. I won’t be doing another bodybuilding show for a long time. I’d like to not do one again until I’m 30 – 4 years away. I’d like to really take some time and build my body; and I’m excited to do that. I’m ready to hit the gym as hard as I can, get my diet right, stay lean, and see what I can really accomplish.
The next time I hit the stage I want to be at my best. The next time I hit the stage I want my body to look different, I want to be big, I want to be lean. I want to be a champion. The next time I hit the stage I want there to be no question about who gets 1st place. I want there to be no doubt in anybody’s mind.
I’m tired of getting last place. I’m sick and tired of it… and it’s either now or never that I do this right. It’s all or nothing at this point — and I’m going for it.
So I’m putting yesterday behind me. It was the last contest of my beginner phase; and my new journey begins today.